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Waiting for the perfect moment...
won't always guarantee you a happy ending.
What else are you waiting for?

What dreams are made of

VLOG 10!!!!!!!!!! :)

Click it friends! You know you want to...
This is one of my more fun vlogs. I really enjoyed every minute of everyday while I visited my hometown. My childhood exists because these kind of memories live on forever.

Find out for certain, love's gonna be there for you...

"No goodbyes...I promised you that a decade ago.

And that promise will never be broken."

Lord, thank you for allowing me to feel your Love through the people I care for the most. I am not perfect, but you always find ways to remind me that I am beautiful just the way I am. You knew me before I was born. You know the desires of my heart, and you multiply the ways in which I receive them. It is never in the way I expect...it's even bigger and better! Who am I to deserve this? This trip has opened up my eyes to the woman I am, the woman I am capable of becoming, and the woman You want me to be.

What more could I possibly ask for?
#BEYONDBLESSED

Vlog #9

IT'S OUT FOLKS.
That still picture from the video does not do anything for me. Hah.
But...I hope you enjoy! The next few vlogs are really personal.

Spiritual Sarcasm

"The Lord was making me uncomfortable not so that I could feel his absence, but so that I may further seek His presence."

Jesus, you have been too good to me this past week. 

Thank you for making me feel safe and able.

I can do this. 

coffee x emails x Emeli Sande on rainy days

"For you have need of endurance, so that when you have done the will of God, you may receive what was promised."

Hebrews 10:36

Feeling the love from all the email replies I've been getting the past few days. Like these blog posts, my emails are novels. Thankfully, the replies are lengthy as well. I don't know about the rest of you, but getting personal messages make me feel special. It means that someone took time out of their busy day to actually:

1.  read my long arse lifestory of an email 
2.  reply 

To those who have already replied MANY thank you's. You don't know the power of your words. It has been enough to refuel and rekindle the flame in my heart. 

Love and other Drugs

My "drugs" from Canada have finally arrived care of @ellen_mt. You can't imagine how happy I was to receive the LBC package. Although I grew up in the Philippines, my body has morphed into its North American version over the years, thus rendering my immune system to a minimal. There are days when I can't even see out of my eyes because of how swollen they are, and nights when I end up finishing tissue paper rolls (sorry cuz!).

Now... it doesn't seem like a big deal receiving my medications, but just like how these "saving" pills came in the mail, so too did the GOOD great news from a friend via iM. His personal message could not have come at the most ideal time. I am filled with SO much joy and happiness right now. I feel like God is trying to tell me that he has heard my prayers and that like my medication he will rid me off the toxins (in my mind) and give me a clearer view of what is to come.

Discernment

What the world says is successful vs. What I think is a good enough cause to fight for.

I thought being in the Philippines would make it so much easier for me to decide. Wrong. Being here has only opened up my eyes to the vastness that lies in between the two lifestyles. This is NOT a highschool multiple choice question. I can't just take a pencil, and fill in what I know is the "better answer", the textbook answer. This is the real stuff. What I choose to go with, I actually have to LIVE out, consequences and all.

In a world where North American lifestyle is glamourized and social activism is on the brink of becoming the latest "fad", deciding has only become that much more challenging. 

You either work for the Lord. Or you work for Money. Inevitably what you do defines who or what exactly you are serving.

Lord continue to stir my heart. I called, and this was Your answer.  Allow me to find my purpose here. 

What goes through my mind every night before bed...

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me

Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity

Candles, Cake and Confetti (rewritten since the original one got deleted!)

We are the prime example of opposites.

Mestizo vs morena.

Skinny vs fat well-fed.

Spontaneous vs neatfreakxOCDxagendas.

Books should use our pictures as reference, haha.

"A true friend is someone who accepts your past, supports your present, and encourages your future."

Happy Birthday bestfriend. 

An introduction of sorts.

 Finally after two months (and three days) I have finally gotten around to:

1.  making a blog
2. posting it
3. releasing it for public consumption
....okay, so I half lied. I still don’t know what to fill this blog with. What I hope to do is share my experiences, both the everyday mundane activities and the big events that encompass my six-month journey in the homeland. 

I came here with a bag full of expectations (and about two weeks worth of clothes). I thought  of all the possibilities a small 5’1 Filipino-Canadian girl would do once she got rooted and settled into the Philippine lifestyle. I dreamt big and I knew I wanted to do it all. Nine months before I actually left Toronto, I was given a vision. I held onto that vivid picture and it made the "impossible" seem possible. At that time I had about three more semesters left of my undergrad. How the heck was I going to finish it in less than a year when I was somewhat, kind of behind my peers? But, praise God because I was obviously able to finish. When you know why you're doing what you are doing, anything can happen. I guess I could call that moment the beginning of a Purpose Driven Life.