Love and other Drugs

My "drugs" from Canada have finally arrived care of @ellen_mt. You can't imagine how happy I was to receive the LBC package. Although I grew up in the Philippines, my body has morphed into its North American version over the years, thus rendering my immune system to a minimal. There are days when I can't even see out of my eyes because of how swollen they are, and nights when I end up finishing tissue paper rolls (sorry cuz!).

Now... it doesn't seem like a big deal receiving my medications, but just like how these "saving" pills came in the mail, so too did the GOOD great news from a friend via iM. His personal message could not have come at the most ideal time. I am filled with SO much joy and happiness right now. I feel like God is trying to tell me that he has heard my prayers and that like my medication he will rid me off the toxins (in my mind) and give me a clearer view of what is to come.

Discernment

What the world says is successful vs. What I think is a good enough cause to fight for.

I thought being in the Philippines would make it so much easier for me to decide. Wrong. Being here has only opened up my eyes to the vastness that lies in between the two lifestyles. This is NOT a highschool multiple choice question. I can't just take a pencil, and fill in what I know is the "better answer", the textbook answer. This is the real stuff. What I choose to go with, I actually have to LIVE out, consequences and all.

In a world where North American lifestyle is glamourized and social activism is on the brink of becoming the latest "fad", deciding has only become that much more challenging. 

You either work for the Lord. Or you work for Money. Inevitably what you do defines who or what exactly you are serving.

Lord continue to stir my heart. I called, and this was Your answer.  Allow me to find my purpose here. 

What goes through my mind every night before bed...

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You have loved me

Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for your kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity