Pruning a tree

Do you know why trees get pruned?
Promise, there's a point to this. So hear me out....

Trees get pruned to...

• remove dead, damaged and diseased branches to help prevent insect & decay organisms from entering the tree.

• Remove co-dominant leaders. Co-dominant leaders are 2 branches growing near the top of a tree that grow straight up and become equally dominant. Cutting off one allows the other branch to grow & become the dominant branch. 

• stimulate growth in sparse areas of the tree.

For about a decade and a half I allowed a particular branch in my life to grow wildly and out of control. It was an area of my life that I thought could be maintained with my patience and love. So for a very long time I poured everything into that one branch. It was damaged and diseased, but I never lost hope. Slowly that one branch sucked out all the goodness that could have gone to other areas of my life.

Pruning does wound the tree. Trees don't actually ‘heal’ their wounds. A branch that has been cut off is permanently gone and nothing else grows there. What does happen is that the tree "seals" its wounds. Over time the tree creates some sort of callus around the wound and covers the initial cut. Inside the tree, some chemical boundary is formed around the wounded area which compartmentalizes it. This prevents decay. 

By the time I noticed how toxic that branch was, it was already sensitive and close to dying. It was the first branch of many and many good things came from it. If I tended to it, wouldn't it eventually just get better? "Eventually" became one year, then another, then another. Fourteen years later I was left with nothing but a tree that had stopped growing properly because the diseased branch was taking up too much. The issue wasn't about whether or not something should be done or what. It was when. I never had enough courage to place both feet firmly planted on the ground. Many times over I made the decision to just let it go, but I never could. 

I finally allowed God to be the one to prune me so it could be done properly. It hurt to have Him do it, and it still stings a lot. The cut was sharp, quick and final. I knew that nothing would ever grow there again which is probably why I held off of it for so long. It's unfortunate that I didn't let God have full control until things really started dying, but how else could a stubborn person like me learn? That branch might have been important in the beginning, but I realized how I had to start growing again. I need to grow. 

Just so, every good tree bears good fruit, and a rotten tree bears bad fruit. A good tree cannot bear bad fruit, not can a rotten tree bear good fruit. Every tree that does not bear good fruit will be cut down and thrown into the fire. So by their fruits you will know them. -Matthew 7:17-20

To be honest, I don't know where God is leading me. However, I can be secure in the knowledge that regardless of the place, my feet are facing forward. Everything that has happened to me in the past two years have contained nothing but blessings upon blessings. The Lord has been outpouring His love for me in so many ways and that was while I carried the decaying branch. How much more growth can happen now that I've cut if off?

I'm trying to ask Mama Mary to show me how to be patient. I've been asking her to help me trust in Her Son the same way she did; to obey & to witness. She's had a very strong presence in my life the past two weeks and I can honestly say that this is the first time in twenty-four years I've really acknowledged her. She's done nothing but console me during this most vulnerable time of my life.

I've been allowing myself to be sensitive to the Spirit this past week and this is the message that kept coming up: Yes, healing hurts, but it doesn't have to be torturous. God's timing is so perfect and even throughout this whole ordeal He's allowed me to enjoy the process. He's allowed me to see far greater things than what I was accustomed to. I'm not at my best but my heart is confident because I have a future full of hope.

Lord, thank you for pruning that branch off for me. Now I can truly continue to BLOOM where you have planted me.

Let Me Take Care

"LET ME TAKE CARE."

This was the last message that resonated so strongly in my heart this past weekend. In less than 12 hours of being back home (on a more permanent basis), the Lord blessed me with an offer for a Full time job. Not only will this job enhance my experience in the program I actually graduated in, it will also allow me to serve fully for my service area here in CFC Youth GTA.

In the past 8 months, I have traveled to 15+ cities in the Philippines, to 4 different states in the U.S. and 3 provinces here in Canada. Within that time I have also attended 4 conferences, 3 which were on a national scale. I served in 2 and participated in 2. This journey began on January 9 with zero plans and a very dried up bank account.

The one line that kept me going: Trust in Me.
The one verse that gave me hope: Jeremiah 29:11.

It was always on the back of my mind that my mission trip would come to an end eventually and that I would have to face reality. After speaking to many of my colleagues in ECE, I knew that the field was saturated. I knew that there may be a possibility that I would be unemployed for a while, or that I may have to settle for a retail job.

But 2.5hrs ago, I was just offered a full time position at a daycare for the sr. preschool classroom at a bilingual centre. I will only be working Mon-Fri which means I will never have to miss out on my household meetings, any assemblies or mission trips during the weekend.

A friend of mine messaged me literally right after the Singles for Christ Conference on Sunday. The position opened up and they needed someone to fill it in ASAP. I start on Tuesday.

WOW.

Our Yes is our personal treasure. It may seem insignificant but it's one of our most powerful possessions, because our yes stems from our choice. No one can force us to give it away, especially not our God.  It is our yes that opens up the door to his infinite amount of blessings. We think WE know best what our needs are, but these standards are based only on what we have seen in our life. Allow the Lord to widen that range of view by giving Him permission to conquer Your life.

It is in your trust that the Lord will reveal not only good things, but GREATER things. I am not lucky. I am BLESSED, because my God has chosen to use me as a beacon of hope to others. Believe that if you give yourself fully to the Lord and surrender your own plans, that He will NOT abandon you. I am no one special- I am not any more loved by the Lord than you are. So do not think that you are exempt from his Promises.

Discovering the Lord is an adventure, and probably the only one that guarantees a happy ending. So give Jesus the wheel, and like me...you may find yourself reaching destinations that you would have never thought possible.

Claim His will and claim His victory in your life.

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

One thing I've started to rediscover during my trip here in the Philippines is my essence as a woman. What in the world do I need to be in order to be respected, to be treasured and most importantly to be loved? Like me, so many of the women today are confused. They are confused because of the way that our societies have chosen to define what and how a woman should be. She should be kind, generous, caring and loving. But then she should also be fearless, aggressive, strong, and the most commonly used definition lately:  independent. 

Apparently that's the most IMPORTANT part: In order to be a "REAL" woman, you need to realize that you do not need a man in your life. Heck, it's all about flower power. You're a woman? So what! You can make your own money, own your own house, drive your own luxury car and climb that career ladder of yours! You're just as great as the next man across from you. Go ahead, tell all the men in your life you're so much better than them.

But that's not why the Lord made us.

"The essence of a man is Strength. A man is meant to be the incarnation- our experience in human form- of our Warrior God. A God who comes through for us." 

Women today strive to be something they are not. We were never made to be like our male counterparts. We will never be like the men in our life, nor should we want to be. Now before I share with you what a woman should offer the world, let me first ask you a simple question.

What was the LAST thing the Lord created on this Earth?

Think about it....

The last thing our God made was woman. 

Has it hit you yet? The profoundness of that very fact? If we see value and beauty in His creations like the mountains, the seas and the animals then why is it so hard for us to see our value and our beauty as a woman? 

WE ARE HIS MASTERPIECE. 

We are the crowning glory. 

We are the cherry on top of that sundae.

So now I can tell you that, "the essence of a woman is beauty. She is meant to be the incarnation- our experience in human form- of a Captivating God."

When I read that in Captivating I was blown away. It took a moment to register. My goodness how was I so blind these past 23 years? How could I let my society devalue me? How did I let so many people tell me I was worth nothing, that I wasn't worth it? That was when I started to not only see but accept what the Lord wanted me to claim this whole time: that as a woman, I am precious.

Lord, grabe ka talaga! You know me and the needs of my heart. You have found a way for me to physically experience Your love...I mean, what better way to affirm my essence as a woman & my worth as Your daughter than to send me such STRONG brotherly companionship here in the Philippines? He has blessed me with so many male counterparts to guide, protect and to walk with me as I grow in my faith journey with Him halfway around the world. What are the chances that I'd have so many of my CANADIAN brothers join me?! First Miguel, Timothy, and Cj. Pretty soon I'll be joined by Julius. And right on time for my birthday, the Biaco brothers Paul & Mitch. These brothers and their presence in my life has been God's reminder to me: that I am His princess.

A man, if he is of God, should help you to discover your beauty as a woman. He will treasure your heart. He will seek out your presence and fight for your love.

So as a woman, yes I do believe we need a man in our life.

Find out for certain, love's gonna be there for you...

"No goodbyes...I promised you that a decade ago.

And that promise will never be broken."

Lord, thank you for allowing me to feel your Love through the people I care for the most. I am not perfect, but you always find ways to remind me that I am beautiful just the way I am. You knew me before I was born. You know the desires of my heart, and you multiply the ways in which I receive them. It is never in the way I expect...it's even bigger and better! Who am I to deserve this? This trip has opened up my eyes to the woman I am, the woman I am capable of becoming, and the woman You want me to be.

What more could I possibly ask for?
#BEYONDBLESSED